The two biggest threats to American liberty are Muslim terrorist and the GOP. Everybody gets the terrorist so there's really no need for further commentary on that subject.  But 47% Americans don't understand how big a threat the Republican Party is to American liberty.  I'm no lover of the Democrats either but that's a different problem that can be addressed after the right wingers are at bay.

Where should I start?  With the easy one?  Abortion.  It's a right the American people have.  The Republicans have a clear agenda to deprive the American people of their liberty.  It's fucking simple!  If you don't want an abortion, go fuck yourself and you won't have to worry about getting pregnant. It really goes a lot deeper than a simple right being taken away.  It's a violation of the first amendment of the Constitution.  If I'd been at the drafting, I would have made it a lot clearer: Keep your fucking religion to yourself (by the way this is the biggest part of the terrorist problem, too).  I don't think I could be any clearer, so if you still don't get it, go away.  You're to fucking dumb to read my shit.

I've already talked about economic in this blog.  That's a subject I've got a lot more to say about but I think my next post will be about a right near and dear to me. The second Amendment, the right to bear arms.  Not only has the GOP not done anything to protect our second amendment rights, they've hijack the cause and funneled the money into all kinds of lobbing activities aimed at stifling American Liberty!

Next time.

Freedom

American Media Whores!

There are couple of things I find disturbing about people's reactions to the Casey Anthony verdict.

First off, an American citizen in the United States of America is INNOCENT till proven guilty. When a citizen of the United States is tried in this great land the verdict is decided by 12 jurors. If these 12 jurors are not convinced by the GOVERNMENT beyond a shadow of a doubt then they shall acquit the accused. There decision is final. That's it! The person is innocent as a matter of fact and anyone else's opinion means nothing. It's the best justice system anyone has ever come up with. It's OUR bill of rights. It is better to let 10 murders free then falsely convict one person. If you don't like it, get the fuck out of my country.

Now everyone gets in a fucking tizzy because there is no justice for the dead baby. So what do they do? They turn there fucking porch lights on. What the fuck good does that do for the dead baby? It's like prayer, it makes people feel like they are doing something when they are really doing NOTHING at all! I find this offensive. The fact is 5 children a day die from abuse and neglect. Over 4000 children have been killed in the country since Caylee Anthony's unfortunate demise!! If you fucking care then do something for the little girl that's still alive and being abuse in YOUR OWN fucking neighborhood. The sad thing is is these media whores will forget all about it once the next sensationalized media topic comes up in a week or so. Like fucking stupid puppy chasing a ball. Do something meaningful or shut the fuck up and go back to stuffing your face with cheese burgers.

I'm pissed off. Not about the fucking verdict. My opinion about the verdict doesn't fucking matter. I'm pissed because there are all these fucking pissed off people that will do NOTHING to make a difference in our country. So I've take some actions to make a fucking differance. I volunteer to be a mentor with United Way and to help out at the local woman's shelter. I've also committed to donating need supplies to the shelter as well. What the fuck are you going to do? Get out in your community and make a difference or sit on you fucking couch with your fucking porch light on wait for the next fucking sensationalize media event to happen? Fucking media whores!!

Some fucked up facts about G.W.

I have friends that have more time in a combat zone then the 4 years of active duty I volunteered for. It's a fucking word that means more than ironic in sick, devious way. Any suggestions? It's (ironic) that G.W. used the same service to get out of serving time in a fucking combat zone.

I'm celebrating freedom tonight!

Forgiveness or Acceptance

I have been thinking about my fears since the last post. I'm may have a fear of being alone but the further I analyze my feels the more it seems rooted in something else. I am afraid of what I'm losing. The best friend I've ever had. She was way more than a lover. Our story is long and complicated, fucked up, really. There is so much about her I would miss. She seems so perfect to me. I not the average everyday kind of guy. I'm an atheist, I ride motorcycles and I follow obscure motorcycle racing that most Americans have never heard of. I like to say fuck a lot and drink micro brews. I know everything and it's hard to find someone that doesn't annoy the fuck out of me. She accepted all of these thing. She even enjoyed some of these things as much as I do, and the rest she'd play along like a good sport. I am afraid she would be missed for ever. I am afraid she can never be replaced. I've been thinking a lot. I think I just need to accept her. I don't want to morn. I don't want to move on. I want to stay here. I want to be here when she returns. I know she doesn't want to hurt me. I don't know what her problem is but she had just as rough a go at life as I have. If this is the way she feels she needs to be, so be it. Acceptance, it feels even better than forgiveness. Now the only thing she can do is reject me.

Anger is Fear

I've embarked on an unintended journey. I've found myself in a strange place, all alone, with a new job. I literally knew no one in this town when I came here, hundreds of miles from friends and family. I wasn't supposed to be alone but life has a way of being a fucking bitch. I hate that angry feeling. I've decided to let it all go. I'm going to use my isolation to my advantage, to explore myself and rid myself of all of all my anger, forever.

I believe that anger is a manifestation of one's fears. Discovering and eliminating my fears is in it's self a fear. The first fear I must address is being alone. By alone I mean with out a significant other. I'm perfectly alright doing things by myself. I can go to a restaurant or bar by myself and feel completely comfortable. I know many people that would find this impossible to do. But to be without an intimate partner to share my life with scares the hell out of me. I thought that I had a relationship that was infallible. We had been through many trials and tribulation. I thought that we had come to the point that we mutually committed for life. I thought I had the safety and security of a true friend that would be there forever. I was mislead. And now this is the first fear that I must address. I need to learn to love living my life for myself. I must avoid the temptation to jump head first into a relationship with the next gal to come along. As I write this I feel fear of finding someone ever again that I feel so compelled to commit to. It took so long to find that perfect person. I fear my own judgement. How could I be so wrong? How can I ever trust any feeling that I might have to be with someone forever?

I was very angry over the infidelity that destroyed my relationship. It was consuming me. I'm a veteran with PTSD and the discovery of the infidelity pushed me into what I call being "outside the wire". This is military terminology for being out side the security of a base, to be in enemy territory. What happens to me in this situation is what I think can be best described as a flight or fight response. My body pumps out adrenaline, my heart races, I can not sleep. All I wanted was revenge, to kill, to destroy, not just the one's that induced this pain but anything that was the least bit out of line with what I feel is just. It is a nightmare. The only thing that gives me the slightest relief is watch TV. I'm not sure what that's all about. I'm not much of a TV watcher. I think it says something about TV that makes me think that watching it should be keep to a minimum. Anyway, I found myself outside the wire for almost 48 hours. I struggled, I watch a lot of TV. I really thought I was going to die if my body kept pumping me full of adrenaline. Somewhere in the midst my nightmare I found forgiveness. Forgiveness saved me. I some how, somewhere found the strength to let go of my anger, my fear. Forgiveness will become a central attribute of my character from now on.

Forgiveness is very difficult to achieve. It requires releasing those thoughts of anger and revenge. But once forgiveness is achieved there is more responsibility that now comes into play. You owe it to yourself and those that have harmed you to make sure that it doesn't happen again. It does no one any good to get into of a cycle wrong doing and forgiveness. It's not good for the one that is hurt or the one doing the hurting. The one being hurt doesn't deserve to be continually be wronged. The one doing the hurting needs to heal what ever issues that are causing them to do wrong. This the challenge I now face.

I don't know if my relationship can be restored. I don't know if I should be considering it. I don't know if she is willing to find the healing she needs. What I do know is forgiveness healed my pain. I will continue to use forgiveness as a tool for eliminating fear and anger in my life.

Eulogy to Laissez-faire Capitalism.

Oh, Laissez-faire Capitalism, how we will miss your pureness of economic virtue. We so loved your ideology. A seemingly perfect model of economic heaven that promised we can all be wealthy with hard work and personal responsibility. But in the end personal responsibility was your fatal flaw. As we find ourselves in this economic cluster fuck, can we admit that the lack of responsibility is was what killed Laissez-faire Capitalism. I doubt it, it was somebody else's fault. Really, it was every ones fault. People bought homes they could not afford. Banks gave loans to people that could not afford them. Hedge fund manages bundled and bought these loans destine to default. To top it off our largest insurance company insured these shady loans that would not be repaid. Where is the responsibility? If Laissez-faire Capitalism was alive and well today the answer would be "Fuck you, you fucked up, figure it out on your own". We must lay to rest this myth of personal responsibility. The denizens of the economy need oversight for are financial markets. Other wise we just end up fucking the whole thing up. Yes, regulation will stifle economic growth but it wont stop growth. What good is wild economic growth if it is just an inflated bubble that bursts into a recession? We must change the model. We are assuming that the players in the markets will act in the best interest of the markets. Instead we should assume the opposite. Markets must be regulated because the individuals participating in the market will only act in there own best interest. Good bye, Laissez-faire Capitalism, your principals will be missed.